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2008-04-07T04:43:00.000-07:00

just post for fun!though i have declared tat my blog is dead...
school gonna start in 1 week time!.
gotta say goodbye to my 2 months holidays.
Actually I'm sort of excited and scared for school to start.
confusing!
but i guess is time to start working! need to jia oil liao!
looking forward for the new modules, timetable and new lecturers!
though i guess most of my classmates think tat the new timetable is insane ,wierd!
i do agree but at the same time I'm lookin forward for the night class.
the longest day is friday!
end at 9.30pm! super late right!!!
keke just pray tat i don't fall sleep in class..
really gonna do my best !!!
and hope tat i can cope with me new modules! yups i can do it!!!more confident...

HERE I COME!YEAR 2 ....

just a sketch by me ...

heading towards 2008

2007-12-31T23:25:00.000-08:00

whohoho.....its beesn so long since i blog ...
heading toward 2008 !!!!time really fly super duble fast !!!

lets talk about 2007 first,
its been a busy year for me , since i graduated from secondary school.And now a poly student.
it seems like i just finished my o lvls not long ago but actually is 1 year ago.
i feel so old now !!!just want to stop at this age!17 years old...

really miss my secondary school teachers and friends.
especially when i went for my class chalet ,at first i was so awkward,so extra in tat room.But slowly i felt much more better ,got to catch up with some of them more.Really miss the time when we were still in a same school and same class.Some of them really change !
really have a fun time with them ,when is time to go home ,i have this "down" feeling ,wondering when i will able to see them again.!!!!
haix..
okay enuff of tat.!!!

today first day of school,is really very "bo liao".
if i know this would happen i will not bother to go school at all!
the bio modelling lecturer forgot tat today there is a lesson.
so instead of her teaching us , our epc lecturer took over her lesson.sianzzz.i hate EPC the most !!!argh!!

i will talk about my 2008 resolution next year.haha

but overall ,just wish that i'm goin to make full use 0f 2008 ,work even harder to achieve my goals!!!hurray!!!
just hope that everything will go smoothly for next year ,will be a better year for me as well as for everyone in this world !!!!
yups!!!world peace then...
whahaha ,i feel so great now ...muahaha...
tats all...

to end this post ,wish evey single one a great year ahead !
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!=)

a meaningful week

2007-11-11T18:00:00.000-08:00

im back to blog!
let's talk about this entire whole week.

i think so far is the best week!
got to study for first 3 days and then holiday.

on thurs was deepavali , so we went to michael's house to celebrate this festival.
is the first time i celebrate deepavali!
so is quite NEW and exciting for me...and indeed i had fun on that day.
cos besides that ,we gave charlene a surprise bdae celebration!!!!
is actually a advance bday for her,cos on the week of her bdae, she is too busy with her orchestra thingy.
so got to celebrate one week earlier!!!!!
glad that she is happy with it..with all our planning!!
HAPPY birthday!!!

then on friday ,as per normal went for my piano lesson till 6.
den slack around.
did some revision for my anatomy as the test is comin...!!!!!
got to buckup.....
cos all those bones thingy,tisssue....i just cant get them into my brain.
no mood to study!!!!!argh!!!!!!

tats all!!!!tmr SCHOOL again !!!!!!
don feel like goin to schoo tmr...
so tired!!!!
envy my sis cos now she is havin her holiday!!

lets jia you !!!!next week goin back to msia ,to celebrate my grandma bdae!!!
whoooohohoho...

and 4e3 chalet is comin !!!of course im goin !!!
yehhohohohoho.!!!

ciao!!!!

WOW!!! so long ago

2007-11-04T11:17:00.000-08:00

it's been super long since i blogged!
wad happened for these few weeks?
hmmm,start school for 3 weeks,headin towards week 4.
is so fast !!!
getting more busy and hectic.more works and tests.
but i guess for this semester there isnt much proj!!!
whoohooo.super happy !!but this mean got to memorise more stuff!
on week 5 there will be anatomy test!
got to memorise !!!!human bones ,tissue and etc....
my brain gonna break ....

now trying to remember and memorise the 46 jap characters.
it quite tough for me !!!
but no matter wad i got to force all of them into my tiny brain!
cos on tues there will be a test on these 46 characters and SPELLING!!!
omg !!!how can i pass cos i cant even memorise the basic 46 characters ,
how can i understand those words(spelling)
gonna die ..haha

so now im trying my very best !!!!

next week will be a very short week for me!!!
haha.
study for first 3 days and then holidays for the next two days.
but to be more exact is 4 days of holiday.
THURS ,FRI,SAT AND SUN...
HAHAHA
thurs is deepavali and then on fri our super good com skill lecturer give us holiday .
haha!!!!

nothing much happened for these past few weeks,normal days!!
i just hate mon and tues .
is the longest day for me ,esp for tues.
im so tired ...

im quite worried for some modules>>biomodelling and electrical principal circuit.
how can i score well?
argh!!!!!
is really tougher than sem 1....
this mean tat i got to work doubly hard for this sem in order to do better .
headache ah!!!

gotta go !!....
GENG BEE!!!i blog le !!!!hahahahaha

tata.

finally can blog

2007-10-18T13:00:00.000-07:00

is the 4th day since the school started.
is thursday!
gonna end this week soon!
yahoooooo!

but something happened today !!!
super mangkok !
today all lectures and labs are cancelled .
actually today school is from 9~12pm.
all these lectures and labs are from one same module.(anatomy&physiology)
that super mangkok lecturer din even inform us beforehand that he is not able to make it for today.
and wad he did was just paste a paper outside the classroom to tel us that no lessons for today!!!!just do the cms at home.

CANT HE JUST CALLED SOMEONE FROM OUR CLASS !!!!
TO INFORM US yesterday or earlier in the morning????
MANGKOK la....

waste my time, sleeps and money!!!
so i went home.

gt do cms !!!
tats is the instruction tat he made .

tats all.!!

tmr !!!!!

2007-10-13T21:46:00.000-07:00

TMR FIRST DAY OF SEMESTER 2!!!!
EXCITED?
HAPPY?

with no reason I feel abit scared for tmr?
but what am i afraid of?
weird feeling!
hehex.

must really focus and do well !!!
kekex.

regret?

2007-10-11T20:11:00.000-07:00

yup !today cut my hair!
is really damm short!
i din expect it to be that short!
REGRET!

i make this mistake twice !!!TWICE!!!!
SO , how can i grow back my hair fast!!!!

argh!!!!dump !!..mangkok la.

sob*sob*

PoSiTiVe

2007-10-10T18:30:00.000-07:00

Goal!do i have a goal?

after watching this movie called GOAL!(not in the cinema).
It sort of inspire me.!
Start to question myself instead of complaining all the times.
do i give in 1oo% for everything i do?
blah blah blah... ...

here is my GOAL!.(for the future 7 seven years)
my Goal is to:
- get good grades for my all my poly semesters.

- then,get into university.(if possible i wanna to go australia or overseas)
just want to experience life alone ,outside singapore without families.
what it will be ,when all have to depend on yourself ,without the help of family,living in a total
new environment.
ALL BY MYSELF!

- be a more confident person(change myself for the better).don't be OVER self-conscious.

Apparently , for now these 3 years in poly ,got to focus on my studies, full attention.no time for others rubbbish things.
cos i don't want to do things that will make me regret again.
just don't want to have this feeling anymore!
it really make me feel so so .argh!......(i don't know how to say)

Live each day to the fullest!

ya !one day i will suceed!
no one is fate to be a failure!

okay !enough about the goal thingy!
will try to achieve it!

today went out with sally to vivo city to buy presents for JEAN.
cos today is her bdae!
also,i bought something for my sis too !
It is for her comin birthday.

and bought a shirt from forever 21!
for $13.
kekex.

4 more days to go and then the school will start!
gambatte!

gonna start soon!

2007-10-09T20:45:00.000-07:00

this coming monday school will start!
OMG!.no more slacking and fun.
must get ready.!

goin back to this hectic life style,
study, projects ,tests.!!!!

heading toward a new semester!
final semester for year 1 .
whoohoo that's fast.

but i have some problem with the new timtable.
it crashed with my orginal timtable,so this means tat every tues straight after school,i got to rush for my piano lesson.

9.00am to 6.00.(school timetable)
den 7.30 to 8.30.(piano lesson)

my piano teacher just can't change her entire schedule for my sake.
she tried to change it ,contacting her other students,but is too difficult.
so no choice.!

Hmm,i was just thinking of cutting my hair,shorter!
maybe shoulder length.
but not tat short anymore!
cos last time i cut it really very short,look so awful.

this time ,somehow wanna to change it for a new start!
A NEW beginning for me!

friday,then buy the lecture notes.
maybe then i can start some revision for my maths.
cos my brain is really very rusty.
got to start workin now.

Can't wait for the language module.
i chose japanese and got iT.
yahoooooooo.!

thats all!
ciao!

let it be

2007-10-07T14:05:00.000-07:00

sometimes u have to let it go and not be so stubborn .
it will make u feel better .
so just let it be.

sometimes the world seem to be so unfair ,
but there is no choice,u have to accept it.
is all depend on you.
:

:

somehow rather at this moment i just wan to change myself.
to a better one.
regardless physically or mentally.

everyone and things seem to be changing,becoming better and better.!accept for me.
i still remain.stepping at that "old spot",no improvements etc.
not keeping up with the everyone.

frankly speaking,i have not find any good things about me.
the main problem in me is lack of confidence.
CONFIDENT!.
is rather hard to change this.
wad can i do to be a more confident and brave person?
why just cant i do it?
shye fern cant u just do it,do it for urself ,don care about the others?

sometimes this really make me detest myself.
why am i so kuku.?
useless?

school gonna start soon!.
time to work ...
working so hard for wad?
sometimes even i tried my very best ,i just cant get wad i want.
though ya ,if u give in ur best one day u will succeed..
but it doesnt really apply to me.

am i a failure?
hope not!

whoohoo

2007-10-01T22:00:00.000-07:00

today went out with my old 'click'-jw,lihin,linging and shujun.

it has been so so long since i saw them .
even though lingning is also in nyp ,i seldom see her.
i think i met her only 3 times.so pathetic!

happy to see them ,have some chit chatting with them.
just like in the old times( actually not so long ago),
when we were in the same class.
great feeling.!

and now we are separated ....
really miss them.

i think shujun change the most.
becoming more and more prettier !!.

thanks shu jun for her present from hongkong.=)

hope that we can be friends for ever..
a long lasting friend is really hard to find !

good friends may not always be together .
it is the feeling if oneness ,
when distant that proves a lasting.

this quote is from atiqah!

besides that today i saw someone.
i think i never seen him for about 5 yrs.
He was my primary school om.
i was shocked that he still remembered me .
this show that i din really change much.
just that i became fatter and fairer.
cos last time im super duble black .
he din really change much .still so kind !!
sort of mis my primary school, school mates and the teachers.

thats all ...=)

DODOD

2007-09-28T09:10:00.000-07:00

slack slack...
for now really wish that the school will start.
im just rotting at home ..doing nothing ..
i wanna to do something that is more meaningful.
is like wasting of time...doing nothing
argh!...

this is how i feel for now.

wad can i do?
maybe next time a better choice is ...go and find a job...
haha....

im getting fatter and fatter...
eat ,watch tv , use lappie den sleep.
hate this ....!!!

wad can i do ??????

mangkok!

2007-09-26T01:16:00.000-07:00

today is BE0703 class chalet ...
but i cant go ...!
MANGKok...
most of them did go ...
so sway whenever there is any gathering ..i just cant make it ..
sure have something crush with it ...
so sway !

reasons for not going:
1) still have to go for piano lesson.till about 5.
2)is my mum bdae.

just hope that the next gathering im able to make it ...
argh!!!
so much to do for my piano lesson just because is holiday ...
so no more excuse for not practicing so hard.!

somehow ..i have some worries for the next semster .
to me ..it seem to be harder..
the maths look more tougher..
other modules...just ....

DONT wanna to think about school reopen .!
pls dont open so fast ...
anw school start at the 15 th of oct ...
still have time to relax abit ..
ahaha...

heard that wang leehoon is comin to out campus on 26th sep ...
every nyp students has 1 ticket...
but in order to have tat one and only ticket ...u need to bring 1 kg of old stuff ..like un used paper ...blah ..blah ....
who will bring exactly 1kg ...
is too heavy and too much...
i am just thinking ...so are they going to weight it ...just to ensure u have 1 kg of those stuff..
haha...

haha..tats all !!!
Ciao!

why?

2007-09-22T22:30:00.000-07:00

i feel so EMPTY ...
so SICK of my life!

just post for fun

2007-09-19T17:00:00.000-07:00

it has been such a long time since i have blogged.
ahaha..now i super duble happy for my results ...
the first thing i got up is to switch on my lappie ...to check how i score..

my heart is thumping so fast and hard .
is the second time since o lvl ,my heart is beating so hard ...
i just scared that history will repeat again ...it will make me dissappointed
haha luckily NOT ..

I'm happy for it ..just a bit sad for one subject ...
but overall is okay!!

my GPA IS 3.893.

When i saw it ..i tot i was dreaming or may be i haven fully woke up ..
haha
i think most of my course mates did quite well ba ...

whoohoo we did it ...for the first semester ..

time really flies fast .im heading toward the second semester ...gradually to the second year ...blah blah ..then finish my poly education.

so excited when i think of this .
i gonna work harder for my future semester.

BUT
when i think of those tests and project s.
my stomach will crumble...
my head will be so painful..
hate all these stuff...
argh..!/
but guess wad i have no choice all these are required in order to proceed.
so just endure !!!!!
YEA!!!

got to work harder for my piano ..
i have not been playing well.
next year will have practical and theory test
jia yous!!!

now having holidays .do nothing but just slack around at home .
so BORING!!!
wad i do to kill time is to watch u tube ,tudou ......read books ..
my life is so death so life less...
how to add more colours to my life?
am i goin to be like this till the day i die ?
haha
will see how den...
hehe

thats all..just a random post ..
take care !!!!
don't know when i will blog again...
ahaha...=)

yeah!!fianlly hoildae ..but why im not happie?

2007-06-09T05:31:00.000-07:00

ya finally holiday ...2 wks of holiday ..
but to put it in a better saying ..
is 2wk ..of preparing of exam ..
when sch start ..
is EXAM ,,...

i hate it ...
so i cant relax at all...
cos besides the preparation of exam ..
there still a proj to finish ..
when sch reopen we need to pass up ..
so much to do for this 2 wks ..

argh...///

but wad ever ..
for now these 2 days i just wanna to rest .....

hehe...
cant wait for the e3 gathering ..
woohoo.....

im happy yet so sad .

2007-05-11T03:40:00.000-07:00

finally today is friday ..
hEAding toward my weekends
finally can rest..

today just finished molecular cellular bioengineering test .
is actually bioLOGY ..
a module tat im not so confident in .
ya i screwED up this first test though it suppose to be the easy ..
tats wad the tcher had said .
"so far no one has failed the test"
But i think maybe i will make history..the first one who failed .
even though i did memorise le ..but still useless ..

hai heck care ...
hope to do better in other tests ..and of course my projects .

finally decided ,im NOT joining any cca for my first year .
is really so tired .
is much more hectic than sec life .
two practices per week .
mon and wed .so after cca i reach home about 10.35..
besides tat the sch end very late too .
tues end at 5pm ...
thurs end at 12 ..but later on still have piano lesson
fri end at 4 .

so if i join any cca ...i done think i and endure ..stand it ..

so maybe next year join other cca ..

GETTING MORE AND MORE STRESS .!!

好烦阿

2007-05-06T18:00:00.000-07:00

im so so fan,...
irritating..
argh....//!!

wads or should i join any cca ..
i noe is abit silly ,to have ccas prob ..
really don noe how ..

ya went to the orchestra orientation ,is really boring and the games are really ....haix..
so should i join .?
if im joining most prob the string ensemble ..maybe viola ..
there is quite alot of them want violin ..
why?
the bad news for me is tat maybe need to but my own instrument.or else can borrow from the club ...
BUT is 2 pple sharing 1 .
how to play and improve..
is rather hard to share ..

my mum is not thinking of buying it ...as she had spent quite alot since i go to poly ..
hai...
if i join maybe im able to go to netherland ..
to perform as our presidents are planning to go there ..
this really make me wanna to join ,...but there is so many BUTs ..obstacles.

and do i really like this cca? ..actually i wan kendo but is too ex ...
if im not joining maybe next year planning to join life saving ba..

im in dilemma...

no mood to study for the upcoming tests ..
stupid !

half death

2007-05-04T18:25:00.000-07:00

finally de last day of my third weeks in nyp has pass .
time flies ...so fast..

to me i really din think tat poly life is much more relaxing than sec life .is so tirng and hectic ..
so much to do ..
really miss sec life cos im so free ..there is more time for me to rest ..
as compareed to now ..
is really the opposite of wad i think when i was still in sec sch ..
envy those pple studing in poly ...they can start sch much more later ..
but is really really not stress(less) at all .

why?

for these 3 weeks ..i already have some probs in computering programming ..
is so tough ...my brain has to twist and turn in order to solve the prob
and there is somthing i found out ..the computer is really not as clever as i thought so ..
maybe for a few more weeks it will be better ..
really hope so ..or else i will be in death meat ..

haha.
im quite excited about tmr orchestra orientation ..
as THIS is the only cca i have left .
....
tats.all..though tired but im really glad to noe those pple in my class ..
they are really quite nice as well as funny .....

so much,,

2007-05-03T15:05:00.000-07:00

so much to do ..more and more things are comong up ..tests ,,,projects .
next week will ahve two tests ..one is maths and the other one is bio..
im sort of scared these 2 tests ..esp bio..
i have never taken any bio related subj before ..
and quite a lot of stuffs...
hope tat i can cope with it ....
pls ....

is really spiderman 3 so ..so nice ..alot of my friends are crazy about it ..
so should watch?

haha...im so tired ...left one more day to endure ...no two more days ...as sat has to go to the orchestra orientation ...

arrg...im so mad..

2007-05-02T19:25:00.000-07:00

im so mad about yesterday ..it make me freaking angry ....and shock .
after buying the wireless router i start to de the setup of my connection .
i did follow the steps ..make sure is will be fine ..
but whenever it reach the last step there would be some probs with the connection .it will show no connection or limited connectivity .
im so fed up ..called the modem cable pple ,he help me to do the troubleshooting and after that asking me about whether i plug the correct thingyx ..
and all is perfectly good ..
he den say is the router.
so i called the router nos .
explaining the problem to her ..
she seems to be not happy or wad ..
her atitude is so poor .really bad .
i just asked qns ..den then she give such reply ..
i was so frustrated ,what happened to her .
so i cant call the hotline when i have any prob or i..??
did i own her anything ??
and her replies are quite harsh too

however luckily my router prob is solved ..
though through the process fo lloving ..make me so so....freaking annoy..

haha..firstentry for y blog using my notebook ..

yeah ..

tats all ..

hooray

2007-04-30T20:30:00.000-07:00

yeah ..tmr no sch ..haha...
finally de longest day which is today had just pass ..!!
and as for tml ..de second longer day ...is a holiday...

is so so good ..as it mean i had miss 4 hrs of biomechanies tutorial and lecture ........
this is one of de most intense one ....is more on phy based ...
at first i really catch no balls ..wad is he talking ...??
but ...slowly ...i find out tat this is actually a quite interesting one ...
maybe gradually i will love phy den ....i tink partly is becos of de lecturer ba ,,,..
so far he is the best lecturer , compared to the others ..
some really ...hai .......

still have biomaterials project to do ...is a grp work ..
luckily is just a proposal ...
during de 12th week is den is de complete one ...

so much to do ..still got to go to de cms to do de e-quizs and assessments ...
i found out that every works such as tutorial ...quiz are rather impt ...
as even if we scored well in de major exams we still failed .....is just take up 40 % ...

hope tat i will continue like my life in nyp ...as well as survive in my course ..

tats all ..smile !!

wah ..im tired !

2007-04-26T02:46:00.000-07:00

is been so so long since i last blog ..
this going to 2 weeks ..are really making me so tired ...
my brain is shutting down and my eyes are getting smaller and smaller ..

esp for the first week is really tough for me to concentrate in class ...is really just so hard ..
maybe im still not used to it ..huh?

therefore the first week ..to me is so so long ..each period lasted for 50min to 1 hrs ..
i will be sitting down listening to de lecturers talking and talking ..

so my favourite time is when it DE breaking time ..2 HOURS BREAK FOR MON ..1 HOUR FOR TUES TO FRI ..

but so far my course mates ..are quite good ..
hope to noe them much better in future ..

so whether wan to join any ccas ...still thinkin

finally done

2007-04-13T00:49:00.001-07:00

lets me talk about the orientation ..in nyp ..so much to say!!!

tues(10.4.07)
i woke up about 5 .45 am ..to get ready ..
the min i woke up my heart is thumping so fast ..
took bus 87 to hougang interchange
den take bus 72 to reach the school ..
haha..den i lost my way ..in the school ..for about 15 mins ..luckily in the mist of finding my way ..i saw another gal ..tats lost her way too ..
so we search for the miting area together.

the first person i noe ..in the same course as me is a gal thats called jasmine ..
she is really cute and we talk alot as if we had known each other for mani mani years ..
the waiting time is rather long ..we waited 2 hrs in de auditorium ....
she intro me her fri ..2 malay boys ..
and one of them is goin to be my class mate..
yeah ...

when we are put in the class ..i was so glad tat it acually have one jyssian...she is frm 4e2 ...
my class consist of 22 pple

it had been a tiring day ..our ogL bri us around ..is damm boring and my back is aching ..
haha..getting older ..
reach home at abt seven ..

wed(11.4.07)
game time ..
today is quite fun as compared to yesteday ..
and our senior bluffed us tat we need to run around the school 2 times ..
we were all shocked ...cos the school is so big !!!
we believe wat they say ..is so stupid !!
when they settled us down ..asking who needs water ..
so they turn around to take the water bottles ...and guess wad they start to splash the water to us ..
throwing water bomb ...
making us running around madly ..

when to de stadium to rest after lunch ..
i had eaten my first most disguising ice cream ..as the weather is super hot ..all the ice cream melted..it taste just like milk plus some weird taste ..yucky !!

reach home abt 6 plus ..

im so exhausted ..sleep till 10 //hahaha

as for today went to nyp ..to buy the lecture notes ..is cost me abt 20 plus bucks ..
on mon ,the first day of sch ..need to but the maths testbk as well some other lecture notes ...
still need to go to the notebook roadshow ...application of ez link ..

still so much to do ..haix

tats all !!

just blogging

2007-04-04T15:45:00.000-07:00

blog time again ..!

just went back to msia during satuday ..

two reasons for goin back are becos..
-family gathering
-qing ming jie

reach my grandparents hse at abt 6 plus in de evening .
den went for dinner in de restaurants ..
de food is indeed delicious ..
h=ahah
den i found out tat one of my cousins is goin to england for future study .
if im not wrong he is leaving on may ....
hehe will miss him ..
abt 2 .30 am den sleep ..

sunday ..
woke at 6 plus ..
wah ..super tired
but no choice ..need to rush to my dad 's mum ..which is my grandmother ...house
den we went to de cemetry at abt 9 plus
is so hot ..esp under this hot blazing sun ..

tats all ..for weekends..

cant wait for de 4e3 outing ..

wad can i do ?

2007-03-28T18:30:00.000-07:00

im so so bored ....
nothing do to ...
stayin at home ....
its killing me ...
argh ....///

left 14 days ,,,
heading toward nyp ..
de first day of orientation ...
hahah....
so so long ..stilll
these few i have been ...reading bks ...
as i really have nothing to work with ...
cos i cant possilbily keep on watching tv ...
when im in sch ...watching tv ...non stop is my wish ..

BUT now ...i don ..
wanna find sumthing to do ..

how cum de youtube ....
when watching de video there isnt any audio ..
no sound at all ..why why ?//

haiz...
really wish to do somthing ..instead of rotting ...
at home ..
esp my brain ..isnt working well
i think im goin to recap some maths ,,tat is needed for my courses ..
those formulae ..
and probably soiving some qns ..
to keep my brain to start work abit ..

yippy done!!

2007-03-23T15:40:00.000-07:00

todae finally sent de enrolment package back to nyp ler ....\
finally finished de registration ......
lookin forword for the orientation ...which is on de 10th and 11th ....next months...
getting nearer .....

maybe next monday im trying =de transportation to my school ...nyp ....
c whether which one is better ...takin 2 buses or taking bus and mrt ....
which is more efficient and accessible ....??

sort of scared ...wonder first day of de orientation ...is goin to be lyk ??
will i be late ....or did i take de rit bus ???/who i will encounter ...can i cope well with my future course mates ..for 3 years ....?//
CAN I???

de more i worried ....my stomach become more painful ....
can i really make it ?/?
with my course mates and my course .....
hope tats all these worries are extra de ......!!!

i will be alone den ...goin to this new stranger ..place .....
haix different orientation day with lam ...or not we can mit up .......hai,,,,
will be alone den .........will no friends for de begining ...

so must make more friends ...be more social ....in order not be left out ....
im just afraid tat i will be too shy and ...quiet ...when i first meet them ...
as for me ...i will be super quiet in front of those stranger ........
so COME ON SHYE FERN BE MORE VOCAL ON TAT DAY ...PLS ...!!

...take it easy ....jia yous //!

wad can i do ?

2007-03-20T02:31:00.001-07:00

this few daes have been quite tired ..this entry shld be very long ..haha

my aunt and cousin as i said came to my house ...
so on sat we went out together to east coast ...to ride bic ....
when i reached dere ..omg so many pple ...
but tats ok as it was expected ...weekenD WATS..

this time round i tried my very best not to fall down
though there were so many pple ridin and skating ...
im afraid tat i will bang on someone
or someone knocked on me ...

i tot i would not be so sway ..tata i will fall again .....but ..
guess wad this time ....fell down again ....
someone at de back bang on me ....
stupid rit ....
haiz ...
both of us and of course de bic fell too ...

this time round is my leg ..left leg ..and has a briuse on my neck ..
and my foot .....was twisted abit ...
luckily not very.SERIOUS...

WHY I FELL AGAIN ...CANT I STOP FALLING ???
ok stop all this fall felling twisting ler ...

on sun ....finally got my enrolment package ...
there are so much to do ...i tot de sch will do for us ...
just lyk in pri and sec schs ...we don hav to do all de paper work ..

still need to go to bank ....check up ...online to apply for tuition grants cos im not a sporean ....
and de enrolment thingy ....

ytd lam and i met up to go check up together ...
at 1st we went to de poly clinic as it will be much cheaper ....however when we reached there ...de nurse said no more ticket need to wait for abt 1 more hr....

so we decided to go ang mo kio hospital ....which is much more ex lar ..
is de first time i did de urine test n chest xray ..hope tat it ok ...no prob with my body
cos if im not alrit ..they will call me to go back ..again ...
hope not !!

i finished de checking first ....haha
when i was out of de doct rom ..i saw lam ...n asked her whether she was done wif de checking ...
AND SHE SAID YES ..

so we went to take de bus to de interchange ...when we reached ...de nurse cal lam to tel her ...go back cos she haven finished de test ...
haiz....
so we go back again ....45 cts wasted .....

things tat i have finished
-application for tuition grants
-cheak up
-photocopy of my particulation

left
-banking
- online enrolment

last thing is to send all this back to nyp ...

done ...

determination ..hard work will do ?...//

2007-03-16T22:40:00.000-07:00

todae morning went back to school to take de year book ..with jiawen
i nv meet her quite a long time ler ...glad to c her

de year book
i found tat this year ...de quality is not as good as de last few years ..
haha
de cover itself shows tat ...
haha,am i too bad to said this ..
besides tat dere is lesser creativity ...
haha .sort of disappointed but i need to buy it cos is de last year ler...
so ..must buy ....haha

after tat we went to to chit chat a bit ....
finally shu jun and lam came ..
haha
den we went to watch movie ...de title is THE PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS

this movie is actually not bad ...after watching it ..have some opinions abt it ..
no matter how hard we must not give up ....grab every opportunities ,never let them just pass through ...
doesnt mean if we did well in sch ..in future it will be de same ...cos it may be de opposite ,however with determination and hard work ....u will get wad u suppose to have it ...

den im just tinking ...wad will happen to my future life ..?
abit scare of this cruel society ...with lots of competitions
can i cope it ...?have i got de courage to move on ...even if there are any big or small obstacles ?

hope tat lihin will get well soon ...haha

LiFe

2007-03-14T23:08:00.000-07:00

nothing big happened for this few days ....
still haven receive de enrolment package ....wads is tat btw ...
haha

wonder ,just curious how much is de ploy fees ....
haha... shld be quite ex ba ...
hai...

yeah my aunt and cousins frm msia are cuming to my hse on fri ....
haha
even thou just seen them durin chy ....

tats all ....y is my life so lifeless ..haha
boring life...ergh....//!!arh

new song

2007-03-12T16:15:00.000-07:00

a new song ...true colours !!
is a song tat is very simple...

life ca =n be so easy and plain ..too ...

so borin ..

2007-03-11T16:45:00.000-07:00

way this few days ..so so tired ?/
sleep to 10 am ! but still so tired ...fatigue ??
w ...h....y ...why???

ya ....yesteday just finish my theory exam ...finally both pract and theory are done ...haha
im free ..feeling giocoso, italian word tat mean gay and merry ..
for this theory exam i had been memerising all these italian ,french,and german terms..!!
i felt tat my mind can burst anytime ...
it been quite along time nv memorise anything impt ...no geor nor ss ..haha

need to wait for another yr ..to suffer this pain again ..!exam....so stress ..
now all i can do is ..to really sit back and relax ..

but maybe will look through some maths that is related to my future course ..hahah
gai shu abit !!

i just tell myself tat i must really put in my very best for my poly ...to do well ...
pls no slacking ..if possible lahs !! but i think is a rather hard job for me ..

i tink i better go and take a nap ba ...haha...nite

so sad !!

2007-03-07T22:18:00.000-08:00

todae ,i went to tp ..to appeal but ..cant....got into de course i wan ..haiz.
they said even just a point difference is still very hard to make it ...

so this mean tat i am for sure goin to nyp ler ...biomedical engineerin .
this is goin to be my future ..
must make new frien again ...no one same as me ..most of them got into tp ...or tpjc ...
hahah
feeling quite nervous ..goin to a new environment with all those "strangers" haha ..
nvm ..shye fern will make new frien de ..

i really miss 4e3 as well as 07s15 pple ...

when ningen and me were eating at kfc ..we saw yvon and her mum ...
hehex ...den talk abit ...
her mum not bad ..actually quite cute ..haha

hope to lihin ,,jw they al ...its been so long since we met ...
haha
but im sure they are goin to be very busy le ...cos they are goin to sch le ...jc !!
goin to different paths ...haiz..

is this de best ,,,//?

2007-03-06T05:53:00.001-08:00

i woke up exactly at 8 in de morning ....!! u noe wad ystd i couldn't even sleep well ...my heart beat is beating real fast ...!"thum ..thum " .....i was so so terrified ...scaring tat out of de 12 choices ..no sch wan me ..haha..!! this qns kept on circulating my mind ....de more i think ..my stomach became more painful ..haha
whenever i am nervous or wad ..my stomach will be playing with me ..

de min i woke up ..i just lied on my bed ...i was scared tat if this time round ..if something bad happened again ..i tink i would go insane ....
even worse ....den after taking my results ..
if i did not get into any of my choices ..this may affect me ..in de piano practical exam ...which is tmr ...
so good at choosing de time to release de results huh..hahahs

i got into " biomedical engineering " in nyp ...
is not my top choices ..but at least got somewhere for me ..haha
but i m thinking of appealling ....to tp ...de same course ...

nyp is at yio chu kang ...isnt it far ....haha

so this cuming thurs i goin to tp ..with ningen ...
haha
she is accompaning me to go there ...!!
such a great frien huh /...!! haha
congrats to her ....got into her ideal course ..haah

thats all 4 today ....just a posting to talk abt my course ...
quite excited ar ..haha

so long(:

2007-03-04T18:35:00.000-08:00

yeah!im back to blog ..
this few days im really ,truly exhausted ..
just went back to msia during satuday

on satuday ,we went to the restaurant to have our dinner with our relatives as well as my grandparents ...(mother sides )
really have fun ..actually i don really feel lyk goin back ..but my aunt told me to go back ..persuadin me ..
so no choice have to go back ..
but im not regretting..
found out tat my cousin is going to england to study ..if im not wrong he is leaving on may ..
left abt one more month .
abt 2.30am we went to sleep ..
den woke in de next moring ..abt 6am plus ..

im super tired but have no choice cos
is "qing ming jie" ,need to clean up de cemetry ..is my grandfather de
my dad drive abt 1/2 hrs to reach my grandmother hse ..which is my dad's mum ,
i felt tat im useless ..i didnt really do much for the cleaning ..just siting there .
siting under de hot blazing sun ..
really cant stand it ..
especially when i am so tired due to lack of sleep ystday ..

den during noon ,,went back to spore ..
is really tiring ..

on next tues going to nyp ..for orientation ..time really flies super fast ..

looking forward for 4e3 outing ..which is on this fri ..hooray ..haha

is hurt ..haha but fun ..

2007-02-28T07:48:00.001-08:00

yesterday when out with my o7s15 fellow classmates to east coast park ..to have our class outing ...
ya riding bic ...i hate bic ...!!
frankly speaking i am not reaaly good at cycling de bic ..so i actully fall abt 10 times ..for the first 9 times ..is like wan to fall but didn ...
i kept on baging on something ..so sway ...last time it wun be like this de ..
maybe too long never ride liao !
finally de last time ..I FALL and ban to de floor
...
such a ugly fall ..haha
i was lying on top de bic ..my left hand had quite alot of bruises ...esp my hand ...
at tat pt of time i didn really feel anyting ..but slowly ..it really hurt ...
n den my friend said .."wah not bad arh ..finally fall ..." ...
haha

i tot tat nothing happened to my leg ..but when i went back ..my leg had some bruises and blue black ...!!

its been quite a lond time ..i didn fall ler..
wah haha...
cos since young ..i would fall down ..alot...

for today ...my body is aching ...i felt so fatigue ..haha
due to alck of exercise ba ..i think ..haha

but after all its really a fun time with them ...though i think ..maybe after the 3 mths thingy ..we may see each other ler ..
haiz ..so sad ..

miss my class 4e3 too ..
haha

tats all for today ..nite..!!

wah.arh!!

2007-02-22T01:19:00.001-08:00

so SO boring .....i have nothing to do ..nothing to play with ..haha

so now i an trying to find some dramas to watch ,,..for fun ..hahaz
tml going to school ...to pass my withdrawl form ..
ya miting grace to go there ...

haven take the jyss year book...wonder whether is out ler..
so lazy to take it ..haha
suit for this year ..which is the PIG year
haha
i thinlking i am getting rather fat now ..especially after coming back frm msia ...
eat ,sleep and slacking ...this is wat i did ...
ahaha
getting fat is a very easy task for me ...But to slim down seems to be an impossilble mission ...
my mouth just cant stop moving ...
Eat and Eat ....!!
this is my job for now ...

thats all 1!

come back ..

2007-02-21T02:53:00.001-08:00

to me chinese new year had just pass ...
ya just came back frm m'sia
receive quite alor ..but it seems to be lesser than last year ..haha!!
receive 2"big " ang bao frm my god mother ..haha ..hooray !!

after taking results is new year le ...
im sort of not very willing to go back ..as for sure they will ask how much i scores ...?how many As did i got ..?
why they must 100% to ask all these qns ..i hate it ...!!
when i wentback the first person who ask me is my grandfather ....i just hate to tel him ...especially him !!
i just said i done very badly ...i don wish wish to say ...but then he kept on asking ...haiz...
then my mum help me to answer it ...haha
relieve !!

for this new year i don really like to face them ...was afraid tat they ask abt my results ...
i was glad tat i did not study in m'sia ..of else i will be like insane ....getting more stress !!haha
cos most of my cousins over there are super clever ...compared to me la !!
getting 4 or more As seems to be a piece of cake ...for them ..
to me is like "unable to reach these stars " .....

but for now i am not thinking so much for these ...those ugly results ..most importantly is tat there is a plce for me in the ploy ...!! a course tat i loke ..hope o get in ...
ar,,,..arh still need to wait for 3 more months ...

haven pass up the withdrawl form ....maybe fri ba ...
haha ...lazy !!
thats all ..smile ..

finally ...is over

2007-02-13T02:03:00.001-08:00

ar...arrh!!
for the past few days when i had just taken mo o lvls results ..
i was terribliy sad ....and feeing lost ...
not wanting to face my results cos is really s***
"i had worked so hard and yet this is wat i get ...??"
i feel like giving up ..where can i go ..?wat if there is no courses tat i like ??
lotsa of qns .....
can i got into courses that i like.??
y so mani of them didi so well .?why i did so badly ...
i feel like it was the end for me...

the moment i get the results ..i was motionless,,,..slowly i felt so unhappy and dejected ..
i held my tears.not allowing it to fall down ..haha
"pls don cry ...don cry in front of so mani pple...""
and i think i did it ..hahax

when i reach home ...i just wan to be alone in my room ...
just don fell like saying anythings to my mum,,,...
when i finally cool down i tot her my results ..she comforted me ...and then she didnt said anythings ..she gave me some space to ..stay calm ...
i think she knews i had gave in my very best ler...

So after thinking a few days ....now i am better ...not feeling down ..hahas
not as sad anymore ...
i talk and persuade myself not to be so pessimistic... there will a be a "solution" for this ...
"when a door os closing ,another door is opening ..is my job to find that door...
accept everything ..find a way to balance this uncertainty .."

yesterday i just submitted my choices ...to me these all choices are very important ..i will affect my life ..in future //..
therefore making a wise choice is rather important .

thats all ...congrats to those who had did well for o .lvls..especially to my class 4e3, and to my friends- those who i had mix around with :connie ,wanyin!!
as for me ..best wishes to my self ..hope that i can get to my ideal course ..=)

HEADING TOWARDS A NEW LIFE =}

coming out soon..

2007-02-07T22:00:00.001-08:00

time really flies ...resuits is cuming out tml..
so fast isnt it
for now i still haven feel anxiety yet ..maybe tonight i will not able to sleep well..haha
hope to get a goog ..nice scores..
my aim is 15 points for L1R5 ...
is it too far to reach ..i don noe...
there is nothing i can do now but to pray hard ..haha
if is not as good as wat i expected ...i am not sure wat i will be like ..haha
no matter wat ...wats is done cant be undone ...

today ..i took pictures with my classmates in this 3 mths trails...
haha
photo taking session again..
there are really a good and memorable experience
i will miss them alot
most of them are not going back after taking the results ...so todae maybe is the last day seeing them ..haha
will miss there

thats all ...best wishes to them .and of course my fellow 4e3 class mates ...
both rox!!!
smile hahaha

.

getting nearer and NEARER

2007-01-28T00:50:00.001-08:00

o lvl results is coming out soon .....im very wprried about it whether i i can get that "ideal results"
having some experience in the jc ...i tink that it does not really suit me...amybe i will go to poly instead .going to the course tat i love ..doing things that i like !!! i don wan to do maths n science again ...very tiring ...i find it hard to cope with them especially chem ..so much to do ...and learn !!
tests are reaching ..maths , chem ..can i do well ? hahax ..
I HATE EXAM ...

FURTHERMORE FOR ECON ...IT IS A TORTURE TO ME...
I DON UNDERSTAND WAT IS IT ALL ABOUT ...
i sort of hate this subj ...maybe due to the tcher...both are really ...
haiz..
i just hate them ..

i still prefer secondary life ...those friends ,tchers ..are much better ///..
i miss it ...
once i get the results i think going back to sec schools ....will be lesser ...
everyone will move on to their new life .. they will be seperate.....
sound so sad ...
but life is just like that ....

just hope that i will get the results that i wan ....best wishes ...ahahaxxx

Last day of 2006

2006-12-31T05:51:00.001-08:00

wah ..last day of 2006 ler...
so fast ..time really flies so quickly .....
half happy n sad ...
holiday is about to end ..going to the 3 mths course
so lazy ,tired and yet so exicited
wonder wat will happen in tis new enviroment ..pple...
haha..i am actually quite afraid ..
jia you wor ..

everyone seems to be seperated...pples in 4e3 ....everyone will go diferent paths ..sum go jc ..sum to poly
we will not able to c each other as often den ...
those days in jyss with 4e3 is indeed a great memories and experiences
full of laughter as well as sadnest ...
really ..i like it ..i love 4e3 ..
it will always be in my mind ..tis fantastic class ..haha
will miss every single one of them ..

finish sec edu ....4 yrs ..wish to get into my ideals place ..in future ..
best wishes to everyone ..
HAPPY NEW YEAR ....HEADING TOWARDS 2007..

2006-07-29T00:52:00.000-07:00

how....

i no longer can tolerate ..........so much works need to be done .....more tests are coming up ......i just wanna to throw all these stress away .

Can i tolerate all these till the end ......can i???
am i doing enough ???
i feel like i still did not work hard enough/....

so many ........i just don noe ......i ned to rest ....BUT I CANT........
sumtimes i just wan to give up ......full despondency .........

haven revise finish for the phy ,chem and ss tests ....can i cope wif all these .......
i really dont noe ......who can help mi ........

maybe i take a rest first ..........gdnite...

2006-06-21T14:50:00.000-07:00

Special day 4 mi todae!!!

today ...finalli i am 16 yrs ole ler...hahas
happi bdae to mi.....
lots of thanks to my fellow friends ....
special thanks to:
Lihin
jiawen
lingning
shujun
huimin
atiqah

thanks for ur presents !!i really love them ....so sweet ....
thank to hui min - for this unique pesent ...very different...love it
thanks to lihin ,jiawen ,lingning,shujun- u all noe mi so well...i love korean drama ......thanks lox...frienz forever.till the end ....haix
thanks to atiqah .i love the presents ....very nice....so glad tat we noe each other ....be frienx forever .....hahass
Amanda:thanks for it .....the msg....jus wanna tell u to smile always ...cheer up!!!

SO much to say ......thanks ........thanks ....
wish u all my frienz ......take care and of course al the best for ur o lvls..
hahas..tats it ......

2006-06-11T23:49:00.000-07:00

Wah still so much

still so much of homework i had not done yet.....amaths ,emaths ,chem ,phy......so so mani...
how to finish ??/
i was just slacking ..tats all
not revision at all yet ....how o lvls ...how to catch ..seem like skool is opening more works are waiting for mi..
Haizzz/
So Stress !!!
i cant jus do nothing for this holiday ..........

But i just so lazy to do anytink ........
i cant do tis wasting my time ...........
jia you.......need to finish up my work ler.....

2006-05-29T17:12:00.000-07:00

hooray......finally

todae........finally finish my first paper ...for o lvls.....Chinese......
HAHAS....yeah, but now...i am feeling so so exhausted .....jus feel like have a good rest ......totally jus slacked for todae.......
At first, for the first paper....i am sosos.......terrifed.......justrying to recall all the formats as well as the phrases......so so....stress.......my heart was bumping so hard......but overall for paper one was alright ...........
as for paper two......not tat good .........how leh..........hai...hack care.......finish ler......don wanna to care so much on the result........

After sch...lihin ,marcus n mi.....went to tm to buy present for Mrs Khiat .......so sad....she is leaving us ler.......sob...sob....wish that she will like the present.....:)

Finally went home ler........fianlly can rest ler......hahas...
tat's all for todae.......i wan to sleep......now.........yawn....!!!

2006-05-24T19:37:00.000-07:00

Why.....

Why today to me ...i don feel very happi ....jus feeing tired an dfull of regret...
todae ,durinf the assembly .Mrs OH gave a talk to us...abt the poor subject ...especially eng....
i felt tat i did not do enough .....but how .....i seem to be very scared now for it.....if failed wat happened .....all tis negative just came out.......besides tat i did not do very well for others too.....
how,,,,,,,...i feel so helpless....who can help mi........WHO.....mi myself have to do it my own .......finish the race........jus a few months ......but at tis point of time ...i sum how ...don noe...jus feel like giving up.....i noe i cant...but.........

Mon ...mt.....olvl coming......am i prepared for tat.......i don wan to retake......

Hai....don care so much lah......i have to hold on.......jus abit more pain.....abit.....i can do it.....jiayou...jiayou.......yeah tis is der spirit........do it one .......okie ......u can ........gogo......jiayou.....hahas.....

2006-05-18T21:43:00.000-07:00

GoOd ...or Bad ....

Today , i got back all my papers for Midyr. Quite disappointed for my S.s and Emaths .....
Not wat i expected ......really especially for my ss.I actually failed my sbq......i was totally dumbstruck......i had never failied for tat section .....i expected to score at least an A for tat....cus tis is the only subject i am confident with.....wat happened........maybe i did not do enough .....maybe.....i don noe .....
Emaths ........all jus becus of my paper i ..,,,,,i was really bad ......so so ...bad .....it pull my whole result for emaths ......really pull hard .......
As for other ...like Phy ......though i did really bad ......i got a C5 .....BUT I FINALLY PASS ..... miracle .....isnt it ....i will work harder now.... more is coming up.........prelims as well as o lvls......

on tis month 29 is going to be uor chinese paper ...i mean o lvl ......real big ........need to buck up .....as these few days after exams ....i had beeb slacking ......totally not doing anythings .......

so when i gotten the results .....i knew it is still not the time for a rest ........ so wat to do .......suffer now ...play later ........hahaha......go.. go.. jia you ....
I need to carry on ........

A bad new ..........
Mrs Khiat ....is leaving us..........how can she .........i am half angry and half sad ........how can she just leave us just like tat .........She is such a great t'cher ....but after she explain ....that she had to persue her dreams ........so no choice but to leave us ........i tink she should go ......everyone have their dreams ...rit.......let her go......i tink is the best....maybe for her future .......but i jus feel so ......

tats all wish that Mrs Khiat will reach her dreams n suceed ...........BeSt WiShEs ....

finally finish .....

2006-05-15T00:33:00.000-07:00

Finally .....

i feel better n more relieved now .........finish every paper now .......finally .......jus wish to relaxed a bit .......for tis two holiday ......jus slack ...........befoer study again for the next exams......prelim n o ...lvls......how i wish there is no such tinks that called o ..lvls .......who is that fellow who invented tis .........making everyone so stress up ........

watcan i so for tis 2 days ,,,,,,......nothing interesting ......maybe jus relax my mind doing sumthings that i like ........relaxing .......haha......so long never feel so free ler.........
jus don tink so much abt the results .....have fun first .........as i had put in my best ler ......so no reget .....but a bit regret for some stupid careless mistakes tt i had made ........haizzzzz.....

tat's all......time to rest ler ........ smile alwaes....

two more ......

2006-05-10T23:16:00.000-07:00

today jus finish the two most ....most tedious paper ......AMATHS N PHY.....
fINALLY .......left two more to go ....chem n phy paper 1 .......
i feeel a bit relief ........
just two more ...i will rest for a while before peparing for the comin exam ......o lvls ....

Fight for it ....

2006-04-30T23:08:00.000-07:00

Exam is jus around the corner .......so work hard .......fight till the end .....
go ...go ...jia you ......
nitez .....

Singapore Election 06...

2006-04-27T19:01:00.000-07:00

Election , a rather sensitive topic in Singapore .I am not really so sure how Singapore Election is like .I had never vote and can't vote in Singapore .To me , election maybe not something I really understand very well , besides being sensitive it is rather complicated . Some Singaporeans may never vote before in their whole life .Even our English teacher had never vote before .

Who to vote ....? I did heard some such comotion nowadays .The best choice should be the People Action party (PAP) . They had controlled Singapore for a long period of time , therefore they should be more experienced in ruling Singapore . They came in power since before the country won independence in 1965 ,the first prime minister who was Mr. Lee Kuan Yew is now the Minister Mentor .The father of Singapore ...

At this period of time , the election is now the hottest topic around in Singapore . Anywhere I go ..along the way to home even going to school i can see poster on PAP as well as the workers' party .

What will happened if People Action Party did not win 47 seats in the election, will there be any changes in Singapore education , everything .
If they lost to the opposite party will the prime minister change , will the education system change , those nursery , government school going to change .I think it is going to be in chaos .What will Singapore like under the workers' party ruling ?...Are they experience enough to take control of Singapore , will Singapore still be able to be so good . Lots of qusetions occurred .All this questions you can't really answer as different people have different opinions .
In my opinion ,I am not too sure about the ability of the Workers' party in controlling Singapore .So whether should we give them the chance ?However it is quite risky , it can affect the whole Singapore future .

I'm thinking whether i will have any chance to vote in Singapore ....but before that I must become a Singaporean first .why they do not allow PR to vote ....we are half Singaporean ....Just kidding .

Anyway that's what my thought for this coming Election .

my mum...

2006-04-27T04:35:00.000-07:00

yesterday sumtinks happened ...real scary ........i had never seen tis before besides in de televison.....
de block jus next to my block .....a unit.....got fire .....the house got fire .....i could even heard someone shouting .......real loud .....the whole house kept on burned none stop .......till de firemen came .....Quite alot of pple watching frm de window .......
At tis moment i heard someone saying '''my mum....."'so loudly .....luckily it was put out .....i tink no one actually injured badly ba ......The broken window fall down .....jus like tat .........

a real experience ........tat;s all ........

So hard .....but still...

2006-04-26T04:39:00.000-07:00

2day jus taken my chinese paper ......real tough this time round .......in de morning i was so tensed up .......some said tt de paper is going to be quite hard .........i started to worry ....This is de first time i felt so stress for my chinese ......de very first time .....i don noe why ....??/

paper 1 i still able 2 rit somethings ......still okie .....can pass ba......
But paper 2 .......er...i really duno ......

i am so scared now .......more tests and exams are comin up ......how .....am i ready 4 tat .....???
Maybe i need to work a bit more hard .........but i jus feel so sick and tired ......but i still need to get through it .........

so ....so ....tired .......gd nitez...

today .....

2006-04-24T03:58:00.002-07:00

Today jus taken my English paper ......very stress lor ....
scared till my stomachache ...
i don tink i am goin to do well lor .....
Especially paper 2 ba .....
i felt like my brain is goin to crack ........
de passage was a bit too long ....very tedious .....

Doing de paper 2 i jus feel so tired .....so tired....like my brain no longer can tink well ....

Jus wish tt i will pass ...........

today .....

2006-04-24T03:58:00.001-07:00

today .....

2006-04-24T03:58:00.000-07:00

2006-04-22T08:58:00.000-07:00

Second time i blog after changing my blogskins ........Finally done with the taggie ....................
left the linking ,,,......Exam is jus around de corner ler .....on Monday .....eng.....so scary lor ....
I felt like i;m not ready yet ,,,,.... so so ....how.......sigh....

But stil need togo on ......everyday study .....so tense up ......
Never mind work hard 4 tis few months ........den u r free ler ......go!!! go....jia you ....

Gd luck to my friends for all the comin exams too.....haahax.....
nitezzzzz.....

Finally

2006-04-18T04:34:00.000-07:00

Finally change my blogskins .........very very long never go to my blog ler .......So So long ....
Still doing the tagboard things ........wish tt it will be comin soon .......So mani thing coming up this few wks .The features , more more tests......midyr..........
So Stress ......So mani thing still haven revise,....

2day de integration test ,,,,................i don think i am goin to do well .......Rather hard ......for mi....

Wish tt all will be fine ....................Go!!! go !!! jia you .........endure......

2006-02-05T01:21:00.000-08:00

Great Expectations and How to Survive the Education System .

These issues, such as the continuously rising standard of education here in Singapore and ambitious parents expecting their children to do better than they are capable of academically, are very real and pressing in our society.There have been more and more children committing suicide these few years . Maybe this should be somethings that can tell the government to review the educational system and the standard it sets for students.
As comparing with my younger sister in the educational system , when I Lock at her primary school textbooks ....I was so shocked .There is alot of differences .Those things she studied in primary school, I studied in Secondary school!! Despite that we are just 3 years apart .Through the changes made to the syllabus it show my that the expectations surrounding students are being raised higher and higher.

Thats the reason why so many people want to immigrant to Australia or New Zealand .Their pace of living is slower, therefore they will be more relaxed .However this cannot keep on happening cn this way .The main source of S'pore is only their people .Less people will work for S'pore to contribute to the economic growth .

Parents provide play a very important role in creating a stress-free environment for their children to grow and learn in. Parents should also communicate more with their children and try to understand them better, so as to being able to cater to their needs.

nEVER stress too much ....Seek help when you cannot handle ..don do siily thing

When a kid'sstress becomes distress

2006-02-01T20:55:00.000-08:00

When a kid's stress becomes distress . "Stress","Stress", you can hear this word often , especially from the students .Where did the stress come from ? From school works , friends and parents or even because of girl boy relationship.Do you agreed .You know what DiStReSs is ? Worse than stress , leading to mental breakdown . The kids in S'pore and Japan get to distress easier as both countries are quite competitive , economy is going very fast .

Stress from school works .I think it is the major problem that cause Stress..A simple screening tool may show parents that a child who cannot cope in school or who has behavioural problems is actually distressed .Examples in June last year , a top pupil ,10 yrs old Lysher Loh died after jumping from a block in Bedok Reservoir Road. She is in Bedok West Pri Sch who was disappointed with her mid-year results and complaining about too much works .This can show us that she was having mental breakdown due to overload works .The sources of these stress may due to abundants tests and exams .The students could not take it anymore so they choose to die in order to solve their problems .

A quiet child may see to be 'good' , a playful as' naughty' and those cannot concentrate as 'stupid' .These are actually symptoms of childhood distress ,as different people express their stress in different ways .

Besides all the bad side of stress, the good side of stress is ...With a certain level stress can prompt a person to perform better .However above the optimal level, raising too much stress could cause their result to deteriorate .The person may be distress meaning mental breackdown could be happened.

Stress from parents .Some parents want their children to perform so they gave them alot of tuition .This will also cause distress to their kids

BiRd FlU....

2006-01-05T22:01:00.000-08:00

Bird flu...''Bird flu'' you can always hear it from the news , family and friends discussing this 'hot' topic....Did this bird flu affect the lives in the whole world?Did those precautions taken by the governments useful and enough.Can it be cure?What can we do to prevent bird flu etc.All these problems just came through my mind..I'm sure many people will ask all sorts of questions about these flu.

Many people may know about this flu BUT they may no nothing on what can they do when this bird flu spread to their countries..such as the people in Singapore can do what...Will it be some thing like the sars...taking away lots of lives around the world.For me all I know about bird flu is ...it is getting more serious .The source or bird flu is from a chicken farm...

Now lets me find out more about these Bird Flu...Some history of bird flu ...it started in 2003(south korea)It is spread to many different countries such as Vietnam ,Malaysia , China...The first death due to bird flu is in Thailand .So can we prevent this ...we can be affected if we inhaled the dry faeces or saliva from a infected bird..It can not be transmitted through eating the poultry...I think a lot of people have this wrong information about this ..that bird flu can transmitted through eating poultry .I did think so in the beginning.

ShOULD we panic... the answer is 'NO'...Relieved..!!I am sure that the government will do a good job ....Eg during the Sars period Singapore government done a good job ....Do you agreed...?

There are some precautions we can do...We can take Tamiflu or Relenza...even though from the research it said it may not be enough BUT wish that the reports is false.Before buying you should ask the doctor whether it is suitable for u..You can buy it for your family too..
Do not get too close to the birds ..try not to feed them ...I think the bird lovers should bare with it ...
At last I think to make sure your body function well once you fall sick see a doctor .Drinks lots of water and eat more nutritious food or fruits...

Stay HEALTHY AND HAPPY ....HAHAX...

Trying ....

2006-01-04T04:03:00.000-08:00

V ery .....very long i did not blog ler....cuz my computer keep on having lots of problems, this make me hate it to even switch on the computer.....today the second day since the school reopen.It seem to be more tired than the first day of school.....Everything is alright accept for today during A maths , it was quite tedious .... Mr Ang kk give us alot of homewk!!!!Onli second day of school give so much .....Feeling so lazy and tired ......

tODAY got a good new from a teachers ......CoNgRaTuLaTiOn to YOU...... fEEL glad for u...

''Sian''
not feeling so well...... having a flu n sawthroat now.....wish that tommorow will be better

thats all ..... i must Jiayou for this crucial year ......O LEVELS ...... gd nite.....

FiNaLly......

2005-07-22T07:35:00.000-07:00

At last my computer is o.k now and have a proper internet .wish that it will nt go headwire lo.....wat so i blog leh .....

2day the a.maths was such a ''easy'' paper leh.... i tink i am goin to fail again bazz... So SADZz...
On monday Chem test and now i have nt start yet . so sian leh.... Still gt certain part of the chapter i stil beri confused ...... so how...so much to study....

After obs had been 4 abt 2 wks le ..... times fly so fast ... i miss there ,the instructors.. Shuxian..jon....
a piece of gd new is that i know Shuxian hp nos... yeah!!!... she is now in obs japan...so cool... maybe we ,the amundsen r going to meet up wif her..... Ha...zz

Amundsen Rox.....

tat all wat i goin to blog .....Gdnitezzz.....

CaStLe

2005-04-05T21:27:00.000-07:00

Castle ..... Very huge , beautiful ..... full of kings , queen , prince and princess .But i never had been there before . Maybe never of maybe''yes'' ...People of the country entouraged the Kings ( the important and head ) . sO COOL ... wHAT I THINK is that only the rich ones can go there . the kings were the one who control everyone ,their lives and death was in his hand .He can bigot other as he was the only one that was right . Imagine that i am the kings that lived in the castle , how it will be like . BUT i am very sure that i will be bored to death , living in a such places .However going there for holiday , i will be so happy .......
so bye .....how about u ....
Besides that i think that the castle will contain things that is asset . those nefarious kings would be hated by the residence ,no want would like he or her.
in the past when i was young i like to read the fairytales ., Even though the ending is always the same '' live happily ever after ''... in some of the story there will be the nefarious witch that wanted to harm the princess with virulent potion or others.. N I hate this stupid witch .....
thats all ... bye ...

Yeah hoLiDay.....

2005-03-26T01:32:00.000-08:00

Today good friday . But to me nothing special except that it was a holiday . Finish the work given and have a good rest . Then going to Yishun to visit my grandmother ( father side) as she just came from Malaysia . I was doutful why i am not that close with her , however more closer to the other grandma ( mother side) .Is it because grandma was the one who looked after me when i was young . Sometimes i find my grandmother was quite lonely .A lonely in the big house in Malaysia , without her husband . I was then thinking what if I was like her when I am old . To me she was a very nice grandmother ,she been through lots of hardships , living in the kampong . She had been through the World war 2 when she was about 7 yrs old . How blissful am i now . Right ?

Next saturday I am going back to malaysia again as it is the ''qing min '' festival .

Holiday is going to stop .... BYE.....

3 wishes.....

2005-03-02T23:15:00.000-08:00

FIRST to do well in studies get the grade that i want . Without this the future will be hopeless .You will suffer

SECOND to become a rich woman when i grow up .Earning lots ''LOTS'' OF MONEY $$
In these days money is so important without this your live is going to be miserable .

THIRD to be a better person . To look better , cleverer and braver . A perfect ones if possible lah. I want to be braver as do you know that i scare of dogs ,cats etc... the way the look at you so scary and the fur . Oh i can't stand it ...
i want to know how to ride bicycle (2 wheels) and badminton ....
Gdnight so sleepy !!!

DrEaMs

2005-02-23T13:15:00.000-08:00

WhAT dreams really are ? As a teenager I have lots of dreams such as the ambitions , future and all sort of things .What my ambition is to become a doctor or a primary school teacher . These two ambitions I had written in my journal . As a student there so much stress and when I become an adult stepping int the society , it is going to be much ''MUCH'' more stress . Do you agree ? I think that everyone will like to have a bright future but when one of my friends said she wanted to quit school . When i asked her how about your future , she said never mind . Why she has this type of feeling .
There are some dreams i think are very stupid . Dream of becoming a baby with no worries except for becoming hungry , waiting someone to feed me . All the things that the baby need to do is to eat and sleep . However it was boring . Dream to become a rich lady . These dreams are unrealistic .
Sometimes my dreams are so far ,
so difficult to reach

Conclusion:Never give up , believe in yourself and try your best in whatever you do !!!!

drama

2005-02-19T00:23:00.000-08:00

Hooray! The act was sucessful ,overall I give 85 percent. The other 15% is for improvement .
I was so excited and eager for our class of 3e3 to come out .Before the act all the props people and other were all doing their part. the props people had to paste the colour papers on the box and all sorts of thing . Scared that we could not finish the work then how ? At this point of time we found that the word(system) is lost and we could not find . We decided to write on the colour paper which look a bit ugly and odd . Just a few minutes the gun lost , but it was found . I felt that the god was playing with us . There were a few parts that were very funny as I laughed like a crazy girl. W hen I asked my friends about the act most of then thought that the part when carring the wolf and the granny distributing the estacy were the funniest one . All were good comments. What I had learnt from the preparation of drama was quite exhausting and what is economic defense . It was to have strong leaders , high employment rates and strong banking etc... I felt that i can communicate and work with the class better. This was a better learning of way .Do you agreed?

Catch

2005-01-27T05:49:00.001-08:00

''wHERE shall i hide mm...''
Playing hide and seek and catching were my favourite games when i was young .How about you ?
Time flies now I am a teenager not a child anymore all this had been a past ,
the beautiful memories .

Like i said time flies so you had to catch it . Time is precious .
Catch every opportunites and to sucess !
Catching fish is what I always want . This is a way to keep calm and patient .
When you are late you need to catch the buses .

Caught in cheating is such a unlucky thing so never ever cheat .